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The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to
Tuesday, January 05th, 2010 | Author: pippinstrano

I’ve certainly had my expierence with heart ache.  It comes from a wide variety of sources.  When it comes to the heart ache that comes from a problem relationship, I have certainly had a great deal of expierence.  From a relationship that ends due to an outside influence, that I am certainly familiar with, and have been for some time.  From a relationship that never can go in the direction that my potential partner and I want it to go in the first place due to an outside influence I am also familiar with, and can say that it is at least less bitter than having a relationship snuffed out.  To love and desire another and have them not want you as more than a casual friend, that is hard, but again something I’ve learned from long expierence how to handle.  Two newer expierences that I’m trying to work through are proving more difficult -

1) to love another, to desire another, and be in love with another, and have them truly love you but not desire you or be in love with you…it is a wildly difficult thing to wrap my head and heart around.  The relationship continues, and has great value to both of us, but it is very hard for me to feel so much for them when they don’t share *some* of the feelings I have.  When nothing is felt back it is easier, because you disengage yourself from the relationship.  But this sort of situation…..it isn’t so clear.

2) to love another, to desire another and be in love with another, and have them lead you to believe that they feel just the same way about you, only to find out that thier feelings have been a farce the whole time, for months, for years…that they needed to have you perform various services for them, and that creating a show of feelings for you to make sure you comply with thier needs…I still do not know how to resolve my feelings on this.  I feel like my heart has been ripped open, and by someone who did it with no more feeling than calling up to have a pizza delivered because they are hungry.

None of this has me in crisis, but it is on my mind, so I thought I’d share.

Be Good

Category: Love  | 5 Comments
A little something inspirational from Ukraine
Monday, January 04th, 2010 | Author: pippinstrano

A friend of mine sent me this, and I wanted to share it with everyone.  There is a link to a YouTube video at the end of this post.

This video shows the winner of ” Ukraine’s Got Talent”,  Kseniya Simonova, 24, drawing a series of pictures on an illuminated sand table showing how ordinary people were affected by the German invasion during World War II.
Her talent, which admittedly is a strange one, is mesmeric to watch.
 
The images, projected onto a large screen, moved many in the audience to tears and she won the top prize of about $130,000.00
 
She begins by creating a scene showing a couple sitting holding hands on a bench under a starry sky, but then warplanes appear and the happy scene is obliterated.
 
It is replaced by a woman’s face crying, but then a baby arrives and the woman smiles again… Once again war returns and Miss Simonova throws the sand into chaos from which a young woman’s face appears.
 
She quickly becomes an old widow, her face wrinkled and sad, before the image turns into a monument to an Unknown Soldier.
 
This outdoor scene becomes framed by a window as if the viewer is looking out on the monument from within a house.
 
In the final scene, a mother and child appear inside and a man standing outside, with his hands pressed against the glass, saying goodbye.
 
The Great Patriotic War, as it is called in Ukraine , resulted in one in four of the population being killed with eight to 11 million deaths out of a population of 42 million.

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