I have a great job, I’m moving in a good direction in the my career, I’m basically ok financially, my wife loves me, I have two beautiful children, and incredible friends that are good to me.  So what’s the trouble?  Why is my world so grey?  Why can’t I feel emotionally engaged in anything?  I love my wife, I love my kids, I care about my friends, but I feel so completely disconnected from the universe, like I’m moving through a fog.  Most of the time my dreams seem more real than my waking time.  I’m sitting here, after watching the free hugs videos, after watching the Trans-siberian Orchestra videos, and now I’m listening to Rent, and barely a tear.  Normally I’d be overwhelmed with emotion, but now it is like whatever inside me used to connect to those things is just gone, or buried so deep that I can’t reach it.  Hurting all the time sucks, but this isn’t better, it is worse.  I’ve been off of my anti-depressents for weeks now, so I don’t think it is that.  What’s happened to me?  What do I need to wake up from this strange dream?